My Life As I Know It

This is my life as I know it. These are my experiences, my emotions, my loves, wins, hopes, fears, and the pursuit of existing in a space where I define my truth. Sassy, sexy, scary, abusive. From “we can’t talk about that” to “it happened, so we must,” because I need this space for me to live, not for you to feel comfortable.

Oh No. I Lost My Crown.

The year I made it… and started to lose it all. COVID-19 marked the beginning of when my life started to collapse. Well… the mark of the beginning of the end of my death, well, Palmer’s death, and the life I had created. The version of me that I loved. There was the version of me reserved for family. Quiet. Polite. Compliant. Loved, but only under certain conditions. And then there was my true identity. Palmer. Palmer had one goal defined by the very things that I loved about

John Palmer Payne

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